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THIS WILL BE A MOSTLY FRIENDS-ONLY JOURNAL!

I'd prefer to know the people who are reading my journal, which can have pretty personal issues. I'd like to friend people I respect or those who seem respectful.


If you want to be added, please leave a message in the comments, and tell me how you found me and who you are, if I don't already know!
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hani_backup: (Friends You Can Laugh With)


I miss this girl.  We weren't everyday talkers after we lived apart, after she graduated, after I graduated, but the times we got together every so many months, it was pretty fabulous and we could talk for hours, also on the phone. 

She was my freshman roommate back in college and we spent about 5 hours talking internationally - Alaska, USA to Malaysia - before we got to campus.  She rocks.  She doesn't take bullshit. She's ambitious, straightforward, goal-oriented, has surprising and likable interests and quirks, maybe intimidating initially but she doesn't make you feel awkward.  I cried when we said goodbye after the goodbye dinner at Athena's. That's when it hit me. During dinner, I was a little quiet, more in the observation and soaking in role.  That last weekend, that last Sunday.
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Another entry at 4am something.  Unfortunately I napped a bit yesterday so my mym fault. I was doing so well staying awake since waking at 6 am until 5pm or so.

I was suppose to meet a friend again yesterday but he texted me about twenty minutes before we were suppose to meet at 6pm or so, saying he had a bad day and maybe tomorrow (today). I don't know if I'm up for it! Silly me.

I tried valerian. Hasn't worked so far. I'm watching Criminal Minds and thinking if I was kidnapped or murdered, my parents would be quite clueless about my real life and my friends and where I hang out, etc.

I would like to see Criminal Minds to feature a foreign student or adult whose parents live outside the country and focus on how the family falls apart. Sure, the show's got distant parents, drugged parents, etc. I just want to see geographically and by necessity emotionally distant parents.

 

It's been 28 days since I left.

28 Days Later.

hani_backup: (Star Fish-Finding Nemo)
I have to buy more postcards so anybody want to get in? I wouldn't mind receiving a postcard, either. It'd make it more like I'm here if I receive more mail.

Anyway, replies are screened so feel free to drop your address in the comment or private message me if you want!
hani_backup: (Nala Simba drinking)


I don't understand where the poster is coming from. Like did the person who made her mad say he/she has Asperger's but the poster doesn't believe him/her and thinks that person is just making an excuse? That said, after the Readercon debacle, it's a change from thinking when someone does something socially unacceptable to jump on the "maybe he/she has Asperger's" thinking.



I've never been a sister wife, or a wife, obviously, but I've grown up among friends and relatives whose father had multiple wives. I've never seen it as a happy thing. That said, all of the husbands were deceitful and having an affair on the first wife before dropping the bomb and either revealing to the first wife that they want to marry this other woman and have her be his second wife or that they already married and hey, here's my second wife, first wife! So I view this postcard with a great sense of sadness... For some reason I'm completely okay with polygamous/open marriages or relationships. I suppose because from what I've seen and heard, those are usually agreed upon by both/all parties and open from the get-go or have to be for everybody's safety whereas the religious polygamy I've heard of growing up just seems full of lies and manipulations.

Other PostSecrets )



Matt doesn't care. :-)

All taken from today's PostSecrets.

Letter!

Aug. 24th, 2012 10:04 pm
hani_backup: (hadn't found)
Letter! I haz letter!

from Matthew!!!

It took four days to get here!

FOUR FLIPPING DAYS when it sometimes seems within US mail takes that long.

FOUR DAYS FROM Chicago to Warsaw!

Just yesterday on Gmail chat we were talking about DHL and mail. (Did you know DHL ceased operations in the US a few years ago but it's strong elsewhere and they deliver to Iran, Cuba and North Korea? North Korea! And it's part of Deutsche Post?)

I cried while reading the letter. I smiled. I laughed a little.

A letter and a drawing in Matt's handwriting...
hani_backup: (Solitutde)
Summer 2007 when my parents were still living in Romania, I visited them. We went on a road trip through some parts of Central/Eastern Europe. I had thought we only visited Krakov, Poland but apparently we also stopped in Warsaw! Wow, my memory is horrible! We also stopped in Czech Republic, Hungary and passed through Slovakia. I didn't write a lot about the history, though.

I visited Old Town Warsaw last night with a high school friend (last time we saw each other was summer 2005). No wonder it seemed familiar! We ate Polish dumplings and he saw me the Polish Mint with its fences of bullet holes. It was pretty neat.

Here's the previousy entry. (Warning: near the end it mentions my then-boyfriend.)
hani_backup: (Blood siren)
It's basically finding your soulmate when you see them. It doesn't care for age differences. A 17 year can imprint with a 4 year old. The 17 year old just has to wait until the 4 year old grows up.

Or, in Jacob's case, a 17/18 year old can imprint on a newborn baby.

Let someone be the center of the universe, let your self float away! )
How is losing your sense of self admirable? How can making your life revolve around one being someone you yearn for, in a partner?

No doubt Jacob will help raise Renesmee, but I suppose my mind is having a very, very hard time wrapping my mind around the fact that he'll have to go from a fatherly/brotherly type of love and support to a, well, romantic type of love and support. Because, ultimately, imprinting is suppose to procure werewolves/offspring/love sex joy joy. I don't understand this transition. I know a few friends who have had friends who've waited until someone is legal before anything physically starts (though emails/texts/chats have not really been non-sexual). That's when the person's still a teenager. This, and other examples, are when the other person is a baby, or a toddler. I just...I get squicked out, to use a phrase from the Internet.

It also bothers me that finding your soulmate, in this universe, means losing your sense of self. It means having the other person become the center of the universe, the gravity of the earth. That's suppose unhealthy and kind of creepy.

Growing up, I've read romance novels or young adult/teen books about romance. It really skewed my expectations for relationships, for males. It joined other factors like observing my parents or sisters or other forms of (mostly Western) media. This before my depression kicked in.

Reading these books and being exposed to the media and my parents hammered home the points:
Bad love/relationship expectations )

Holy fuck, I just thought of the book the fifth point refers to for the first time today in a long fucking time. I can't believe, as a kid, I gobbled up all the romance novels set in the 1500 or 1600's or whatever in Europe/London, you know, with Ton and everything. It was rape. I can't believe I read that book and was completely okay with it whereas I saw Jodie Foster in The Accused and that really stuck with me so much and besides my parents forbidding me to wear short skirts after I got my period (due to religious beliefs), that movie also scared off short skirts.

Was it because one was written and the other was visual? Was it because in one, it was his wife and I was expected to believe the male to have sexual power and knowledge and use it and in the other it was clearly strangers raping Jodie Foster's character? Oh, my God, did I condone what was essentially a rape in one book, by not reacting badly to it?

Even if the setting and time period in the book condones rape or males sexually assaulting their fiancee or wives, I wasn't raised in that period. That book was heavy on victim-blaming and the victim/female taking all the blame for all the fights in the relationship upon her shoulders. I shouldn't have been "okay, cool" and just gone on to the next book.

Oh, God. I feel so bad for reading that book and thinking it was completely okay. Oh, my God, I liked a book that endorses rape-culture.
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I now have Internet on my laptop! I've had it for three days.

Silly as it may sound , I didn't think of Googling the answer to "How to find a password for the router" because I assumed that if it wasn't found in the Network and Sharing Center on my parents' computer and my parents' didn't know, it was lost forever and we needed a tech dude from the Internet service company to find it somehow. Ironically Matt found the answer in Yahoo! Answers.

Finding the passcode my parents told me didn't exist )

Now that I've all my bookmarks and all back, it's kind of addictive. I obviously can't use Hulu or Netflix here but I can still download the e-books and audio books from CPL and WPLC. *knocks on wood* And that's what I did Wednesday. It's nice to have both Matt's and my CPL cards to download books from. :P CPL only allows 6 downloads and 3 holds per card from their Downloadable Media Library. WPLC is a little cooler - 10 downloads and 10 holds.

I tried Eoin Colfer's Airman but lost interest pretty quickly. I love his Artemis Fowl series and The Wish List but this one just felt too...prosaic, I guess. There's no fantasy and I'm not interested in historical fiction, usually. Also, planes and flying mechanisms don't much interest me. Guess that's another reason some steampunk books completely lose me...

Then I reread Carolyn Mackler's The Earth, My Butt and Other Big Round Things which I definitely recommend. It's very honest. I bought my own copy years ago while in high school. It was originally published in 2003 and yep, after 9 years, I still find it a compelling book. Of course it's not perfect but I found it very relatable.

But with two days of these books, I think I'm able to stop getting sucked into the Internet. Again, there's no websites I can stream TV shows from (that I know of) and with the time difference, I really don't have anybody to chat online with GMail or anything now. It's study time!

Here's some good GRE studying news:
I'm done with the Arithmetic section in the GRE Quantitative book! I'm going to start the Algebra Section! I love algebra! ♥
hani_backup: (Seriously?)
"Sometimes it was so easy to forget that I was kissing a vampire. Not because he seemed ordinary or human -- I could never for a second forget that I was holding someone more angel than man in my arms -- but because he made it seem like nothing at all to have his lips against my lips, my face, my throat."

"SOMEONE MORE ANGEL THAN MAN."

Oh, dear Gods...

Btw, from the last Twilight book.

B-Mo

Aug. 22nd, 2012 10:45 pm
hani_backup: (Solitutde)
I've never seen Adventure Time but Matt and his brother are big fans of it. Upon unpacking my luggage I found out I accidentally packed Matt's B-Mo shirt! The day before I left I had done a pile of laundry and since my dirty clothes were too small for me to justify running it and using all that water and detergent and electricity, I added some of his clothes. I thought I had sorted them out afterwards, upon the folding of said clothes, but I guess not!

He wore this shirt one day in Vegas and got a lot of comments from others! Unsurprisingly, the comments were mainly made in Excalibur or the Luxor, and the comments were mainly from kids and teenagers and young adults.

I've worn it several times to sleep so here's the shirt after a shower in the late afternoon. It's quite big on me.



And a close up!B-Mo shirt! )

When I first saw the shirt, I thought it was some kind of Nintendo character or something. I was semi-close!
hani_backup: (dancing!)
I can't wait until your Gold Dust album comes out! 

I haven't bought a ticket for your concert here in Warsaw in October.  For one, not sure how to get there, for another I'll be going alone, and for third, it's before my GRE and I didn't exactly study as much as I should have and did as well as I could have for my previous GRE.

Four photos from her Gold Dust photoshoot seen here.

A teaser


Can't believe she's 49 years old!
hani_backup: (pi pie)
To those few who celebrate it on my friendslist, belated Eid Mubarak!
hani_backup: (Seriously?)

From a Malaysian friend's Facebook page, that she took from one of her Malaysian friends or an organization there:



People are driving towards the bottom right corner. The reason? Eid is approaching so people are going back to kampung (village/country side/where most elderly relatives live and some people after retirement).

Also, Shell! And Petronas!

In Poland

Aug. 10th, 2012 11:32 pm
hani_backup: ("hushed")
Reached here safely.  Am using my parents' computer (with a non-genuine copy of Windows so I'm not willing to use GMail or other email services or bank stuff or Amazon or anything with sensitivity).  My mom doesn't know the passcode to the wireless router here so I can't use the Internet on my laptop!  Will try to rectify this in a few days.  (The next few days are busy.)

Will say, this feels unreal.  Much crying prior, at, and after the airport. 
hani_backup: ("hushedwee")

Wore my ears while packing. it's therapeutic. Happier memories, when leaving wasn't something we thought of.

Now we're struggling with Catharine. She's a hard one to pass by and she's an icy bitch right now. In a wedding dress.

hani_backup: ("hushedwee")


flight tomorrow to Vegas. I'm in a neck brace. here's hoping 24 hours is enough. (pinched nerve, apparently)

hani_backup: (Anne Stokes - Autumn Fairy)


hello?:

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Amy has a bucket which contains 4 2/3 gallons of water. She pours out 1/4 of the water. After several hours pass, 3/7 of the water remaining in the bucket evaporates. How many gallons of water remain?

Give your answer as a fraction. ____ gallons


Here's How to Crack It

Your impulse may be to convert all those fractions into decimals. Don't. First off, they're fairly messy as decimals (3.7 ~ 0.42857 ... ), and secondly, there are some nice simplifications we can do with the fractions.

Start with that 4 2/3 gallons. Convert it into an improper fraction, which means it is 12/3 + 2/3 = 14/3. Now we want to find 1/4 of 14/3, and then 3/7 of that. So we want to find 14/3 x 1/4 x 3/7.

Notice that we can simplify the 3 in the denominator of the first fraction with the 3 in the numerator of the last fraction, leaving us 14/1 x 1/4 x 1/7.

Simplify a 7 from the top of the first fraction and the bottom of the last, leaving 2/1 x 1/4 x 1/1.

Now simplify out a 2 from the first and middle fractions, leaving 1/1 x 1/2 x 1/1. Enter in 1 on the top of the fraction box, and 2 on the bottom.

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